i think one of my dogs is dying.
she hasn’t been doing so well lately. been really sluggish and hasn’t been feeling well. she’s fourteen years old and i know if i took her to the vet, they’d put her down. i was hoping she was just in a rut or had a cold. but i don’t think that’s the case anymore.
she fell in the creek behind the house tonight. the puppies tried to get get her out, but made it worse. i think her head might have gone underwater before we could get her out. the creek isn’t deep, but the dogs were on either side of her, pulling her. she’s in the house, trying to get dry. she’s not breathing well. she’s struggling to take breaths and it sounds like she’s trying to throw up, but can’t. kind of dry heaving.
i feel really crappy. like a terrible person. i wish i could do something. just. fuck. she’s a good dog and i hate seeing her like this, but i can’t afford the vet visit to have her put down. we’re trying our best to keep her comfortable.

